Victoria's journey into school.....

After the devastating news and the total lack of support from family members I dont care to mention we started thinking about putting Victoria in pre-school. One word describes this journey DRAMA. The school was  a pre-school with a Autism special needs class. the class was adorable all the typical little boys and girls learning playing and just being typical. i was devastated Victoria was the beauty girl but her behavior had everyone on the edge of their seats. The other mom's stayed away from me with the exception of a couple that just felt sorry for me and my daughter pity wasnt what i needed. I dropped her off quickly and returned to get her as quickly as i could,she would strike at anyone close to her including me and dad and the ones that loves her. She started hitting me pulling my hair  biting me throwing things including a sippy-cup that felt like a missle on the back of my head as i was driving...I thought she hated me. . Then the out of control screaming that put me over the top I couldnt stand it it hurt my ear-drums to the point I cried. I told Steve one of us has to get help and i had no idea what to do I had no one to talk to or turn to.. I couldnt wait to get her out of that school I could see the dread on the parents faces and the kids running from her i apologized a lot. I thought maybe I should just keep her home but i couldnt handle her behavior it was just too much. We moved across town and found the best man ,a helper, teacher and friend, someone i would come to trust and admire his name was Duncan.He ran the ASD program and Victoria was placed there. He was patient kind loving and best of all he could try to help her and us he cared about my family Jesus knew I needed help he put us all together i will forever be grateful to Duncan. We didnt  feel we had the correct diagnosis and we kept searching for answers. Victoria's behavior was evening out but now we couldnt take her in public unless we had to. The stares and the comments put me over the top several times to the point i flipped out at a local McDonalds but boldly we had the right to be there we were not freaks and Victoria and i had lunch that day ,A day i will always remember. I love my baby she loves to eat and we have that right as well as any other person.I was growing learning everyday from Victoria and Jesus had me being bold for her rights I had a lady come up to Victoria in a cart at the grocery store and shush her because she was saying awwwww i came unglued ! Who was this woman telling me my baby cant make sounds???I told her to step away my baby is special and it was only by the grace of God I didnt hurt her.(try messing with a mommys baby).I was and still am her biggest advocate.Untill I take my last breath..............